Hello lovers :)
Well Covid 19 happened since my
last post. and MY GOD HAS IT HIT US! It’s been three weeks since I have been
allowed to work and a long time with having Marcus at home due to his Golf Tour
been put on hold.
I'm the type of person that
craves adventure almost like a Disney princess ha-ha. Yeah, I’ll go with
that. I’m a Disney princess In my own right. And now I feel like I can’t
go anywhere. But I know that soon I will be free again to do with the world
what I want. This time in isolation is my time to grow. Work on myself, my
goals in life and my dreams.
When Boris announced the official
lockdown (praying the guy gets better because yeah, he has his flaws but he
defo trying to do his best) I was terrified. Not for me. But for my family, my
friends, my clients and the world.
All sorts racing through my
head, finances, my career, my family, my friends, my life, my hobbies, my dogs.
Something has happened in this
time and I have realised that this is my second chance in life and a blessing
in disguise. Lucky for me I am a tad loca and I have the most random belongings,
take for example the week before this isolation me and my best friend Tonkinton
as I call her. We had a party and I drank vodka like a Russian with just a
lemon chaser… People who know Luci, understand that this is a crazy mix and at
the end of the night, I had receipts for A rainbow coloured Mac (Like Joesephs
Dream coat- that I am still waiting for thanks to the big pal Corona virus) and
a keyboard. ßWe do many things like this its where we
create genius plans when we are together for example:
· Christmas day 2016.. We dressed up as
minions and booked 3 weeks to Colombia (best trip Ever)
· We also hustled our way through Bulgaria,
involving police stations, hitting the big books in casinos and taking on Bulgarian
mafia.
Okay, not so genius but YOLO.
Anyways, before this virus I probably didn’t give anybody 100% of
me. Was I scared to be too different? Was I scared of been hated? Was I scared
of life? To all them questions yes. I lost myself for a while. I suppose in my
job seeing people every day, being a little sister, a daughter, a fiancée,
aunt, friend, businesswoman and a dog mum I forgot to be me. So, I asked myself
what do you want? “a family with Marcus and watch him become world number 1 at
golf” then I stopped and realised something that that is not my dream. Do I
want them things? 100%! But that’s his dream… So, I started thinking back to
when I was at school my interests.
Now I am focusing on them, in this time I’m drawing again, reading
and of course doing this blog. I’m dancing literally all the time and watching
seasons and films I forgot about. I’m taking care of my health, Im cooking and
boxing like there is no tomorrow and I am starting to feel stronger mentally
and physically.
I suppose what I am trying to say to you all is this is a scary fucking
time. I’m terrified that I will lose a friend or family member. But that negative
right there.. I have now taken as a positive. Im Sending food parcels to my
families, engaging with my family and I am trying to keep their mind set
positive. It helps. I have started to try teach myself Spanish again so I can
interact with my family and friends in costa rica (its head blagging when you
have dyslexia let me tell you, but it doesn’t stop me, I just keep stopping and
starting).
I just also want to point out how amazing the key workers and NHS
are, they are the true heroes in this battle, lets keep helping and stay inside
Stay Positive, Keep safe!!
Peace out MotherF***ers!!
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